Ms. Ferret - A Ferret Blog: Jebabba is gone

It happened so fast. I thought for sure on Tuesday that I was going to have to let him go last night at his follow up appointment. But Wednesday morning and afternoon, he actually seemed to be fighting it. He licked a little food off of my finger and the syringe, he got up to go to the bathroom himself, and he seemed more interested in being around Frank and the girls. Unfortunately, it seems now that the will to live he displayed that morning was the last he could muster.

On the way to the vet's on Wednesday evening, he got a bloody nose. He had some bruising, and some black in his stool (digested blood). We decided at the vet's that he probably had a clotting issue, but given his energy that day, we would try some different medications and vitamins to see if we could keep him with us.

We got home, and he refused to eat again after that. Then around midnight, he pooped, and it was half stool, half frank (red) blood. I knew that was the end of any hope that he might last longer. I spent the night with him, holding him and cuddling him. Then this morning, I called the vet and we took him in.

Jebabba passed away this morning at around 11 am. He died in my arms as I told him how special he was and how much I loved him.

He was the last of my original seven, and there's a huge hole in my heart right now. I don't know if anything can ever fill it. He was so special, as were they all. It was so hard to leave him there, but I take comfort in the fact that he is reunited with his friends. They are all whole, all healthy, all happy and playful. I know that he will be so happy to see Bonk again, and right now he's dancing and dooking up a storm. But despite that knowledge, my heart is breaking.

I miss you so much, my sweet Jebabba, my Babbers. Though you are gone, you will live on in my memories and the stories I tell of your antics. You were my sweet, crazy guy, and you brought so much to my life. I hope that you left knowing how much I love you and how much you meant to me.